Gathering all my strength to end this year in a productive manner (because it really was productive from the beginning). I don't know if this spring that is happening in mid November is helping or making everything worse, because all I want is to just go out and spend all day under the sun, but I keep myself from doing that because the book (and lots of work) are waiting for me, so I just end up sad. It is nice to see sunshine even through the window, but I don't know. I did let myself enjoy the weather for two days of complete zen, and I swear it felt like the world stopped turning. Now I'm thinking about buying a mini zen garden (something like this), but not sure if that would relax me or make me go nuts. Also I want one with white frame, but can't find it anywhere. Confused is what I am these days, indeed, but that's what spring in November does to your head I guess...